October 26. <33

well khaley is more into partying than he is into me. =( which sucks but I had to break it off. I really liked him.

&& today one year ago I met adam.. && I called him && hes being rude like usual.

I miss my friends. && I really want a bf. I would want adam if he wasnt such a db to me all the time.

matt teirney calls me everyday. ITS SO ANNOYING!! lol
&& I would never go for him. He does stuff with EVERYBODY!! no way. =p

I wish adam was real. no one knows what I would do for him. =(

well donny && I are cool now. which makes me really happy because atleast I can see how his life is going. I really miss him.

well I watch high school musical 3 today && its amazing. =)
i loved it.

anyways.. life sucks at the moment. I never have anything to look forward to. I hate it. I miss my old life. I miss my friends.

huh.. so in conclusion LIFE SUCKS!!

october 22<3

6 more days until it would be 1 year. =/. ehh, && hes gay. He keeps asking me to do dirty stuff with him. He's a douche.

but jess sent me a rude message today on myspace. haha; doesnt suprise me tho. cuz shes been hanging out with amanda alot. && amanda hates me. w.e. DRAMA! I'm out. lol

I miss my old life sometimes. The people I used to be close to. Now they hate me. I guess losing people your close to is part of growing up. Even if it really hurts. and sometimes you just cant fix things. No matter how hard you tried.

I went to court today. I was so nervous. But everything turned out okay. =)

I hope my mom lets me stay at my uncles because I didnt last night.

Mat comes home soon. I miss my bubby!! I cant wait. && Im sure there will be a million more pictures when he comes. =) Im really proud of my bubby. Ive been thinking and I think I want to get a tatto of doggy tags with one saying clark in it and the other to say proud sister. =)

I havent talked to my dad again. =( I think hes avoiding me. But I cant do anything about it.

My heart has hurt alot latley && I wish I knew how I could fix alot of things. Which I beleive in reality won't be changing soon. Its out of my control.

October 21. <3

=); well today I got out of school at 10:30. Last night Khaley told me to call him when I got home from school. So when I called him he answered && he sounded sleepy. =) haha; but then he told me that he would call me later && he hasn't. =(. Is that a bad sign? because Im not sure. It's already 5:35.


but I still kinda miss adam. I called him *67 today just to hear his voice. haha when he answered I hung up. I'm LAME. But it just keeps getting to me that this month would be one year.

I guess when the cake that my mom is making is done we're going to my uncle kennys for his b-day. I asked if I could stay the night && my momma said maybe. =) hope so.


Well last night lexi && I couldnt sleep so we were randomly txting ppl. && we txted the number brandon dillman gave us && they called && it was actually brandon delk. Donny's best friend!! && he told me that I was hott && that we should chill. I was like what about donny? and he was like well he is going to be gone for 8 years. lol.. so I said maybe. I mean hes rlly cute. But I like Khaley.. I just hope he likes me too && Im not wasting my time you know? so then im not turning these guys down for nothing.


Well; I called my dad today && all he did was yell at me about the whole moving in situation && kirsten told him khaley had a baby!! which is not true. It pisses me off. but I guess he really doesnt want me to move in. w.e. I really hate him sometimes.

We went to pizza hut today! =) && after we went to Johan fabrics && I found this amazing fabric. I really want to make pillows and a new comforter. I just have to get money first. Which means I need a job.

I have court tomorrow.!! I am so nervous!! But hopefully they let me get a job permit so that I can get a job. I really want one. I need new clothes && a cell && I need to get my hair done.
Plus for christmas I wanna take the girls for a girls day of nails && hair. But it will cost alot so I need a job for money.



but I think Im going to go.



ohh&& btw Donny's a Douche bag!! =)

<3 October 20.

So; I havent posted in a long time. Donny && I are officially done. He cried && begged for me back && I told him that I did love him but we've allready tried && that it didn't work but I was sorry. Well the next day he took pictures with his ex kissing. Haha; yep I can tell he loved me so much.

Whatever, he's not worth worrying over. I'm still young. But I like this guy. His name is Khaley. He's had a pretty rough life. But he is just so sweet and amazing. I guess we'll see where that will go. =)

Anyways, Ive started my classes out at the family opp. center. They are extremly hard but Im working my butt off.

haha; well over spring break last year I talked to this guy named matt for about 2 days. && then he randomly called me last week && now he calls me && tells me that he misses me. WEIRD!! lol

Halloween is soon. I'm pumped. I hope my mom or dad lets me go trick-or-treating. Halloween is one of my favorite holidays. So this Halloween I wanna make it big && fun. =D woowoo.

I miss my friends. I miss brittany- my bestie so much! I hope they dont forget about me. && I hope my bestie doesnt replace me. I miss my life. =( but I know that I have to suffer my consequences. I have to go to court soon. Im really nervous.

I want to move in with my dad. Its a very slow process. Its not that I hate it here at my moms. Im just ready for a change. but the whole child support thing is standing in the way. It sucks.

I hope when I go to court that they let me get a work permit, I REALLY want a job. I want to get some money to get some new clothes for school && get my hair done.

I can't wait until I go back to school. This year I get to go to prom. I can't wait!! =)


This month would be one year for adam cotner and I. I miss him. But I understand that theres a big reason that we're done. So, I know that this is for the best.